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[hauntedsavior]

anna amarande

31/f. happily ever after we lived, the end.

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[hauntedsavior]

[good. they're both trading barbs at each other, but they're not going anywhere, either. why is this the kind of relationship that she has with so many people who matter in her life?]

I have that proof. [she says it quietly, like it matters.] And for a while, there was still a part of me that wanted her here. Even though I knew it was a bad idea. Even though I knew she was doing better without me. I'm selfish, I guess. But I think I see your point anyway.

[she frowns a little.]

I just don't know why you'd come here to let me return the favor if you were just irritated about it.

[loopsbian]

[ satoko nods as anna speaks. the woman does see her point, after all. just because they're calling it different things doesn't mean they don't see eye to eye.

she misses sakiko, so, so terribly. it aches when she thinks about it, worse some days than others. but sakiko isn't hers to miss, and it'd certainly be terrible for her to show up here. so for now, this is all she can do. ]

...I thought you might understand. [ it sounds a bit pathetic, put that way. she hastily clarifies: ] Better than most, at least. It isn't as if I have many people here to talk to, after all. Especially not about...

[ well. all of that. ]

[hauntedsavior]

[she understands. or she does her best to, anyway. and she holds satoko with a little more tenderness, the way that she's been getting a little more practice with lately.]

I don't understand everything, but I think I get this. [she was caught up on the wrong things. she just needs to be here for satoko without worrying so intensely about the particulars.]

Even if it's the right thing for her to be where she is... it still hurts to not have her. And I'm sorry that it does. I wish I had an answer for you, but I still haven't been able to find one, except to live with the hurt and hope one day it goes away.